Monday Night

Ok, so I have these really good days, and I have some bad ones too. I will be honest and say that just because most of the time I've been given since September 17, 2008 has been very exciting and I've made more than the best of it, doesn't mean so much that I ALWAYS look at the positive in things. Though I know it makes life so much easier to view the positivity in a situation, I often fall into the negative thoughts... I grow from these but I dwell sometimes a little too long on what I should have done differently. Learning experiences, a very dear friend of mine calls them. I had quite a bit typed out after that, falling into something I do often of putting too much out in the open. I've learned that it can make some people uncomfortable when I put my feelings out there. I almost copied and pasted it into an email to the person, but realized that might not be a good idea either. I don't want to put anyone on the spot, especially with where I am in my life right now. There is a book I don't want to open again, because I'm convinced that I will be hurt. Not the same person I was talking about seeing today at the meeting, someone else. I am dating someone kinda exclusively right now. I respect him enough not to dig into the past while I am with him. I have plenty to say, but know it isn't right. I know I'm right where I need to be. I just realised something, I'm where I need to be, but that might not be the case tomorrow- I wish I could just open up the right way and that things would fall into place the way I want them to... lol! I'm going to go to bed and pray about this- it's time to pick up some pieces and put them back in their places.
Good night and as always, God bless you and keep you, safe and secure in His love.