The beginning...

I figure that since it's the beginning of a new year and new chapter in my life, I will begin an entirely new blog here... probably will have the link on my myspace page because all of my blogs have been there up until this moment. Recovery has been a wonderful process, and since I am still learning and growing, a lot of my story will probably be told here.
My life is an open book, and when questioned about my past, I really don't care what the question, I answer honestly. It's the past and not part of my life anymore. Most of the chaos has been learned from, some has just been set down and given over to a Higher authority because I have no reason to continue holding on to it. From books I've read and things I've been taught, what negative I hold on to can kill me. I can no longer hold grudges, look badly at another human being- it's amazing how much of me can be saved, and how happy I have been by forgiving everyone who I felt did anything against me. Fact is, I've learned that a lot of the resentment I had towards people was founded on delusion and selfishness anyway.
I don't settle by any means, I just accept people as they are and for the positive they have to offer. I don't have to be around the negative, and have learned to completely remove myself from those who create too much ucky drama in my life. I have friends today, very few of them, but they are true friends. I don't associate with people who spend their time bashing other people verbally. I finally see that the reason people do that is because they are conditioned to do anything and everything in their power to make themselves look better. A lot of people don't like to see others living happier, fuller lives than themselves. It is what it is, you get what you get as long as you do what you do. No one else is to blame for my unhappiness in life but me... it's a cool lesson learned.
God bless you all.